10 more days. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT! It was only a few days ago that I felt she would never get here. Then overnight, I suddenly realized the time left is quite short. Though at this point she can come at any time now, I have a sneaking suspicion she is pretty content in there and has no plans to arrive until we make her! My inducement is scheduled bright and early at 6 am on 18th, so I am pretty much planning everything around that day. Not to say that I still don't grow impatient. As Ian and I sit on the couch on this very lazy Sunday, I just want her to be with us so bad. So does Ian. He is starting to get impatient too! That is reassuring to know; sometimes I wonder if he is fully prepared for all to come. I think he is. :)
So for those I don't talk to as frequently, at my 36 week appointment, my doctor checked me for the first time and to my delight, she said I was already 1 cm dilated and 50% effaced. That is awesome news! But it got me so excited, I was for sure I had progressed more at my 37 week appt, right? Not so much. The baby's head had descended down but I had stayed the same otherwise. "I don't think she'll be coming this weekend" was what she had to say. Well, damn. And she was right obviously. Here I am, and still no baby. I do have contractions from time to time, but it is nothing too concerning. Everyone says I'll just "know" when the real ones get here, and only once have I had a contraction that was really painful, so I still am not quite sure what I'm in for.
People ask me if I'm scared for labor. Really, I don't know how to answer that question. To be perfectly honest, I sort of have this "anything goes" feeling to it. I am ready for whatever, and I'm not naive to know I will be in lots of pain, but I just have to go with it and depend on my husband and mother for the support I need to get through it. Can it be that simple? If not, oh well, but thats my attitude going into it. And getting the epidural is must. I have a pretty good pain threshold, but I know myself well, and doing the whole thing natural is just not in my game plan. And I'm not ashamed to admit that.
So its a countdown to the finish now. I am more excited than I've ever been. I can't wait to count her little toes, pinch her chubby cheeks, and kiss her face! Its going to be the best day of my life!!!